Posted by: thebylog | May 5, 2005

Fasting

There’s a little bit of a culture of fasting around here, which is a really good thing. One of the teachers here has done two 40 day fasts, if you can believe it. I can barely believe it, and if you try fasting for a few days, it gets even more unbelievable. And a couple of classes at SMBI involve some fasting.

There are only 7 guys here, and a few of them were into doing a 10 day fast. We all decided that we were going to do at least some fasting this term. I’d never done anything more than a day (I forget for sure if I even lasted a whole day), so I decided to go for a 3-day. A couple ended up doing 10 days, and I tip my hat to them.

Optimally, you fast because something’s really on your heart or a tough decision needs to be made. I’m not sure the motives of all the guys, but my motive wasn’t quite that pure. It was more a positive peer pressure thing, something I wanted to try, and once I decided to do it, I thought of a couple of things that I would try to focus on through my fast. Maybe that had something to do with how it turned out.

Yeah, before you get too “wow Byran’s getting pretty holy because he’s fasting,” you should talk to GG, one of the cooks here, and ask her what I was like during it. If I wasn’t lusting after food I was pretty close. One night for dessert they had chocolate e’clairs (I don’t know how to spell that), and afterward there were leftovers sitting out on the table for people to eat! I wanted some so bad. It is so hard to deny yourself food! I don’t think you’re supposed to think about food if you can help it, but sometimes I could hardly help it. Well, I probably could have, but I didn’t want to.

Maybe it was because of less-than-great motives, or maybe it’s because I’m a relative fasting newbie, but ever since (at least until the last day or two), I’ve just been in love with food! Food is such a blessing, such a joy, so, so good! I’ve been eating too much.

But, on the other hand, fasting allowed me some time with God that I wouldn’t have otherwise taken, and I think the turning point of my term came on a walk down the dirt road, by myself. So God used it, and now that I have the experience under my belt, I think I’ll do it some more.

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Responses

  1. Elisabeth Elliot says when she fasts she thinks more about food than any other time–that comforted me. 🙂
    lori

  2. I usually think about food a lot while I fast too. Something that helps though, when I feel the “pang”, turn my mind to “Why am I doing this?”. I should say, try to turn my mind… It’s not easy. But I think God sees our sincerity, and will bless us accordingly. That’s why it’s important to have pure motives.


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